Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Update.:post 66.......
its been almost a month since my os ended, but instead of happiness i feel i'm trapped in a world of eternal emptiness....
i feel my life's been a lie all along, that i've been deluding myself of a happy ending that will never come.Why is there not a painkiller for the pain that i've been feeling inside? Sure, everyone's Standard answer is to forget and move on, they don't know how hard it is to carry out that sentence.
Thats the sad thing about life, happy endings are hard to come by, and if you think your on the road to it, life just slaps you in the face and you wake up in a harsh reality that everything that you've dreamed of was actually wishful thinking on your part.
As the song says,
"as real as it seems, you're only in my dreams."
Maybe i'm too naive, falling for someone so shallow.......
guess i have to learn this lesson the hard way...........
But i'l pull through, with god's grace....
Found a job selling ice cream at gellatisimo at the ground floor of isetan...
have very friendly co-workers that help me along, also get to eat free ice cream and
see pretty jap girls there....
quite a nice job....
yeah thats all from me today
sorry i'm like super emo now...
i feel i'm just a plaything that people throw away once their tired of it
owells, too bad...:(
