Wednesday, May 02, 2007
i felt like writing a compo, so write i shall.....
its titled........ahhhh shit!!!! never mind i shall name it later.....
kkz here goes ( this is about the same standard by which i write my compos, which SUCKS LIKE HELL!)
Disclaimer: all the characters in this story are fictional, any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead is ENTIRELY coincidental. The vulgarities are extra too.
Raindrops fell on my face, interwining with my tears as i ran through the pouring rain. I clasped my chest, trying to shut out the heartbreaking image i saw earlier. A car sounded its horn at me, alerting me to its presence as it sped up the road, i had failed to spot it due to a hundred thousand thoughts whirling through my head. The word "why" spinned over and over again. Each "why" that hit me caused a hundred more teardrops to fall, indiscernible in the now heavy rain. Finally i saw a familiar figure, " have you come back to me?" i wondered. blurred anddizzy from the heartache that split my heart in 2, i suddenly felt tired, void of any strength. The figure came closer, ever closer......
" Wake up you jackass! its time for the next class!" I was shaken awake and fell to the floor out of grogginess. A bad dream, i thought. Too much late nights watching Manchester United owning every single team in the EPL had taken its toll on me. The phone calls kept coming, as had the scoldings. Mostly the complaints were of me sleeping in class or late submission of homework. They had also confisticated my phone 3 times, but i always stole it back. My grades were being affected too.F9s that were too many to count had caused my parents to give me the cold shoulder. " Why cant you be an A1 scorer like your sister,Natasha? She gets A1 for every single test and exam for the past 4-5 years and was proclaimed the top scorer from her school. You are the direct opposite! You always go out with that girl*and never come home till late at night. And when you are at home, you spend all your time on that chatline chatting with her again!Can you at least pass the next test? If you don't pass the next test, i'l give up on you."
That was that. As expected, my next test failed, albeit miserably. I had among the lowest scores in my class. When i came back, i was totally ignored by my parents, it felt as if i was in a foreign land. The place i had called home for the past 16 years had become so cold. Only my sister still saw that i existed and continued to show her concern and care, which i did'nt care much about. The rest of the family acted as though i had died. But i was willing to give up on everything in order to be with her*. To me, she was the only light and warmth i had left in my world that had become so dark and cold. Her smile brought happiness to my sad mood, which was very constant, and her laughter would bring joy into my life. I would feel so happy and light-headed every time i was with her. So much so that i told myself that if my friendship with her was destroyed, i would have nothing to live for.
My Mids came and went, same poor results, same reprimanding by my parents. They decided to take things to the extreme. My computer,electric guitar and my outings with my friends were all taken away, but still i did not care. She was the only thing on my mind at that point in time. i decided to do it, on the night my phone was taken away, i decided to ask her out and tell her how i felt. The last message i would send her was," Heys, wanna talk to you at star bucks for awhile, why not say 6.00pm on Saturday?"
The days came and went, Saturday finally arrived. In order to evade the punishment my parents had set upon me, i made a stupid excuse to say i was studying with my school friends. My parents didn't really care anymore, they stopped caring after my mids results were released.
"Crap, I'm late" i told myself as i ran through the corridors of the shop houses lining the road where star bucks was located. The sky was overcast and thunder rolled in the distance. i was about to reach for the door handle when i saw it. The most unbelievable, heart-wrenching moment i had ever seen in my life unfurled right before my very eyes. She was with another guy, and she kissed him.They were holding hands and sitting together. My mind told me to go in there and tell the guy to piss off, but my arms lacked the strength to even pull open the door, let alone to storm in. At that moment, it started raining, it was as if heaven was playing a trick on me and this was the grand finale. Seeing the girl i love in the arms of another guy and getting drenched at the same time. Not being able to contain the tears in my eyes and the sadness within, i quickly ran off back home.
Raindrops fell on my face, interwining with my tears as i ran through the pouring rain. I suddenly felt a weird sense of familiarity, i had run the same steps, seen and done everything up to this point in the dream i had dreamt in class. I saw the familiar figure , as i did in my dream. But losing the strength to even walk, i sat by the roadside, my face in my arms. Just then, a hand touched my shoulder, i looked up and saw my elder sister's Natasha's smiling face staring down at me. She opened her arms and gave me a hug and said:" Its ok, cry it all out, you'll feel better after that. " At that moment, i cried my heart out, out of guilt, shame and sadness. Because i had experienced my sister's unconditional love for me, even when i was down and out. I just cried and cried and cried, tears that were undifferentiated from the raindrops that fell from the overcast sky.
Ps: I'm not being emo here, just writing some stuff, dun worry, i wont kill myself....HAHAZ:)
* read DISCLAIMER if you still don't get it....
